I dont know...

i really dont know how i feel right now...its like floating in a void of nothingness, i dont know if im depressed, numb, or what... so i guess ill just spam with pictures *shrugs* enjoy

Fuck You

OH HAI! LOOK WHO KILLED MY FUCKING VIBE

*BEGINS MY FUCKING BITCHY RANT*

fucking excuse you?

PARDON ME

 if im curious as to whats going on in your fucking life b/c you know i fucking love you an you loved me too until you found this bitch upstate an tossed me aside like i was a toy

so EXCUSE ME for asking questions about this new girl trying to make sure she treats you right an whatnot since im not fucking there

..................................................................................................................

there is absolutely no fucking need for you to tell me "thats my reasons and not your business"

fucker

KINDA is my damn business cause i dont want you ending up broken hearted like how you left me -.-

so again, PARDON ME, if im trying to look out for you, PARDON ME, if im still fucking here after everything thats happened, PARDON FUCKING ME, if im still putting you right up at the top of my list in the top fucking five an taking time out of my life just to try to make you happy even if it costs me MY happiness, oh an lastly PARDON MY FUCKING ASS if im actually not being hostile about this girl an legit trying to get to know her an youre getting fucking pissed off at me b/c im asking you questions an shit

SO JUST PARDON ME, CLEARLY IM IN THE WRONG HERE AN I'LL JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP NOW, NOT LIKE IM REALLY IN YOUR LIFE ANYMORE OR ANYTHING SINCE, YOU KNOW, YOU KINDA FUCKING IGNORE ME AN DONT REALLY TALK TO ME ANYMORE

oh an P.S.

thanks for telling me youll fucking skype me but then blowing me off an ending the convo abruptly (yes i realize you may of had to go b/c of your dad but im pissed right now) an not skyping me at all even though i havent seen you in fucking forever, just so you can go off with this chick WHOSE SPENDING THE NIGHT AT YOUR HOUSE FOR THE NEXT 2 DAYS AN YOU FUCKING SEE HER BASICALLY EVERYDAY -.-

no really, its fine! im not pissed, what ever gave you that impression? oh no im totally calm, you know rainbows an shit -.-

 oh i need anger management classes? heres my response -.-

if you could be a dear an get me some of this spray though id be very appreciative...

Just a lil something from my night :P

so me an a friend are talking and this just transpired :P

Him: sigh... -sits in the corner feeling unloved-

Me: oh you are not unloved

Him: it feels that way

Me: why?

Him: because you wont send me a picture of you smiling because you wont turn a light on :P

Me: dude! my light is on! its still hella dark in here! theres a big storm going on outside along with the fact that the suns setting!

Me: i thought you understood that???

Him: jeez calm your tits woman o.o

Him: i was kidding ._.

Me: that was not yelling that was exasperation, you will KNOW when im yelling, so my tits are calm sir

Him: -plays with your boobs- ill calm them

Me: *facepalm* how does that...i dont even...fuck logic, thats why lol

Him: i love you too bella

Me: XD

rotfl, love you too corey XD

Later On In The Convo

Him: you can go ahead and sleep if you want lul

Me: im kinda dozing off but i dont wanna leave you either

 

Him: ill be fine. i might sleep as well

 

Me: you sure?

 

Him: yes

 

Him: go sleep

 

Him: now

 

Him: or else

 

Me: or else what lol

 

Him: ill have to rape you gently

 

Me: the heck? XD

 

*after a few minutes of silence have passed*

 

Him: with love...jeez

 

Me: this is why were friends XD

Last straw-Ive Had It With Men

im absolutely fucking done with men, the only good men out there it seems are brandon, jonathan, an a couple on goodreads, other than that i cant seem to find a single good one -.-

not only have i been harassed by a pervy 14 year old multiple times today, but have been bothered by my 20 yr old 'friend' who i dont even know who he is anymore, been ignored by my closest guy friend, an am not worth other guys time of day apparently who are also my 'friends'....NOT TO MENTION, had a little fucker on youtube whose been picking a fight with me for a while start it up again an call me a fucking boy. FUCK. THIS. SHIT. hate to break it to that dick but i have a V where he'd like to see a P -.-

i never thought that i could be depressed an then become even more depressed than per normal but here i am, w/ a dash of crying and a few gallons of pissed off bitch mixed in

also since im basically ranting to no one considering no one really comes an visits this site at all really unless i post a link an tell you to come here, heres some gifs of my feelings right now b/c i need to fucking rant

except for the girls an those few boys who are good